INDEPENDENT LADY

It's a hot summer night on the southside

finna get ready to take a li'l ride

Gonna cruise the hood in my pearl Escalady

Gonna sight some brothas

Maybe act a li'l shady

They holla and they flex as I slide by

But I'm still lookin' for the right guy

He's gotta be a hottie

he's gotta stay fly

With a li'l bit of thug in his eye

You all know the Independent lady

White Honey in the pearl Escalady

I learned from my man how to be shady

Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me

So here's a brothas chance to be

down with me

But he's gotta be V.I.P.

not just anybody

Every body's poppin' bottles these days

Downin' themselves in a purple haze

All kindza drink at ev'ry house party

Yes, even the ol' cliche Baccardi

If you're VIP then you've got the Cha Ching

and all the icy icy on your bling bling

If you ain't clubin' you ain't doin the damn thing

NOW LISTEN TO THE PRETTY LADY SING

You all know the Independent Lady

Not lookin' for a yes, just need a maybe

We gonna spend some time , Is that ok baby

Come and take a ride in my Escalady

We gonna cruise the hood sippin on HQ

Baby if you're good mix in the Henny too

If I'm gonna slide I want all to see

You lookin' like the Hottie with the V.I.P.

A li'l bit of street to really sex me

Dont worry bout my man he's history

We're goin' to the club to shake all night

Maybe if I'm lucky there will be a girl fight

He might be there with her if I am right

He's gonna see me in a new light

You all know the Independent Lady

White Honey in a pearl Escalady

Didn't wanna do it but I'm out bein' shady

Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me

So here's a brothas chance to be

Down with me

But he's gotta be V.I.P.

not just anybody

You all know the Independent Lady

White Honey in the pearl Escalady

Not lookin' for a yes just need a maybe

Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me

So come and take a ride in my Escalady

MY HEART STILL LONGS FOR HIM

I think about him, still, after all this time

The way he looks, the way he smells

Sometimes, When I'm sleep

I forget he is gone

I reach for him

He is not there

My heart still longs for him

I sleepwalk through every day, still, daydreaming

About his laugh, his smile

Sometimes, when I'm out

I think I hear him

I turn around

He is not there

My heart still longs for him

I love him, still, after all this time

all his mistakes, all his lies

All the time, I miss him

I just want to be with him

But I cannot

He is not there

My heart still longs for him

GOODBYE LOVE

I let go of my heart today

I said goodbye to my love

It's the hardest thing I ever had to say

I said goodbye to my love

I removed the ring he gave to me

I said goodbye to my love

I erased every trace that I could see

I said goodbye to my love

It's sad to me he wont know our daughter

I said goodbye to my love

I wipe away those tears remembering he didn't want her

I said goodbye to my love

It is now time for me to grieve

I said goodbye to my love

I still dont understand why he had to leave

I said goodbye to my love

CRACK WIDOW 2007

Once I was in love and soared through the heavens. He was my lover and my best friend for eight years. Life wasn't perfect but it was adventurous and fullfilling. My Love was stolen from me by the devil of all drugs. My heart bounds me to this weary planet where I mourn the loss of my love. Although he is still living, he is the walking dead. Seeing him on the street makes me cry remembering the man he used to be. Listening to my daughter cry for her father breaks my heart, knowing that I am not only denying myself I am also denying her the love we both long for. He cannot see past his own wants and needs. He cannot hear the pleas from his family, his friends, or me to get the help he needs to come back to us. He is addicted to the devil of all drugs and the man he was he is no more.

I want to soar the heavens again. I'm afraid there is no one who can help me until I have found my release from the grief that binds me here. I'm afraid that day will never come.
I dont know how to let go of my love for the man he was or my sorrow for the man he now is.
I am a crack widow.

BOY TOY

Out rollin' in my blue jeans and white T
Bustin in a new pair of Nike
My ass lookin' Mighty, Mighty
I wear more bling than Ice T
My future's lookin' brightly
And now your girl , she wanna fight me

It's not my fault you're a play boy
I didn't know I was just your boy toy
finally free from you, I jump for joy
Now you only call me just to annoy
with the charms you try to deploy
your girls heart you did destroy

I didnt know the affect you would have on me
The hypnotic trance of your eyes held me fondly
I never asked to fall for you completely
What will I do, now that Im free
You still hanging around not letting me be
It's hard to walk away Independently

It should be her heart you seek, not mine
I didnt know bout her, thought I was your Valentine
I know our friendship was hard to define
What is it about me that gets you to cross the line
Why didn't I see the signs
Get out of my mind. Get out of my mind.

Hard at work tryin' to replace you
Better get your girl, that's what you should do
Tell her to pay me no mind cuz you and I are through
It wasn't only me. It takes two
You were chasing me, if she only knew
It's your fault , you shoulda stayed true.

Out rollin' in my blue jeans and white T
Bustin in a new pair of Nike
The ass is lookin mighty , mighty
I'm wearin' more Ice than Ice T
My future is lookin' brightly
And now your girl she wanna fight me

I didn't know you were a play boy
Didn't know I was just your boy toy
finally free from you I jump for joy
Now you only call me just to annoy
with the charming ways you deploy
my trust in you you did destroy

TEARS FALL

Tears
fall
one
by
one
from deep glassy pools of blue
One
by
one
tears
fall
from a pain that has no mirrored reflection at the source
One
by
one
tears
stream
over a pale white saddened surface
One
by
one
tears
fall
from one who has loved and lost love in a battle
Won
by
One
Tears Fall

LOVED BY ME

I want to kiss you behind your ears

I want to be the one to ease your fears

I want to hold you close to me

And show you what it's like to be

Loved by me

I want to put my arms around you tight

Cuddle up to you every night

Tell you everything is gonna be alright

And show you what it's like to be

Loved by me

I want to look into your eyes

And know I will hear no lies

I want to hold you close to me

And show what it's like to be

Loved by me

You wanna know how it would be

If you was to be with me

Just take me by the hand

Let's walk on the beach in the sand

As the waves splash our feet

I pull you close and our lips meet

As we walk along the shore

I will make your heart soar

I know what I have to do

I have to give all my love to you

And show you what its like to be

Loved by me

THE IDEA OF YOU 2002

The idea of you is Poetry

The way you swagga and sway

As you walk across the room

The gleam in your eye as you smile and flirt

The scent of your cologne as you walk by

oh my

But your voice, so smooth, so silky

Gets me so hot

I love it when you call my name

And when you call me baby

Even when you tell me maybe

I imagine what it would be like

To feel your skin touching mine

To feel your breath in my ear as you hold me near

I wonder what your fingers feel like

on the small of my back

And what they would feel like

When you slide them up into my hair

And pull my head back

I day dream about your succulent lips

caressing my neck, my breast, my thigh

The very thought of you inside of me

Brings out a sigh

I find the more I'm near you

the more these thoughts cross my mind

Sometimes they are so vivd and clear

Reality gets left behind

When I look into your eyes I try to see

If thoughts of me tempt you

When you whipser my name

I know that they do.

ODE TO CUPID

Oh winged creature who floats soft in the air

And did pierce my heart deep with your arrow

Oh with your Angelic soft flesh, and golden hair

You captured my heart quick as a sparrow

Oh protector and giver of love and care

You made me see plain man as Pharoh

Oh Cupid, our hearts you combined as one

Sealed with honeydew never to come undone

CRAVING ME

Do you crave these lips

My tongue and sweet taste?

Do you crave these hips

My thighs and small waist?

Do you crave this body

My soft skin and curves?

Do you crave this hottie?

Do I excite those nerves?

THE LONELY WOMAN'S CHRISTMAS WISH 2003

All I want for Christmas is a man with a plan

One who has all his teeth and maybe a tan

He would have to have his own money and a REAL job

He would have to be outgoing, I dont want a snob

All I want for Christmas is a man who treats me right

One who knows where his home is and isn't out all night

He would take me out dancing once in a while

One who when I came home from work would greet me with a smile

All I want for Christmas is a man who will give me his heart

Even if he's only kinda cute and only kinda smart

He doesnt have to be perfect in every little way

Santa, do u think you could bring him before Christmas day?

LONELY NEW YEAR 2002

What will the new year bring?

I know it's not a shiny new ring

Probably more lonely cold nights

where i sit at home with no lights

My heart saddens at the thought

Sometimes I wish love could be bought

Maybe then I would have a chance

To find true love at first glance

My heart aches every day

For the love I felt has went away

I feel nothing inside, Im numb

When my son's father calls me dumb

His words dont hurt me anymore

Why wont he just walk out the door?

I have nothing left to give

Sometimes I dont even want to live

I see not future love for me

I AM DESTINED TO BE LONELY

CHRISTMAS TEARS 2002

Christmas should be filled with joy

Laughter for every girl and boy

But smiles wont be on my face

A stream of tears will take their place

Because I am forced to live in hell

With a man who cannot tell

That I dont want him in my life

And I will never be his wife

Anger, sorrow and depression

Will leave an everlasting impression

On my lonely empty heart

The sadness I fear will never depart

I no longer like the holiday season

Without love there is no reason

So no smiles will you see from me

Till my tormentor sets me free

HOW DO I LOVE THEE

How do I love thee, let me count the ways.

I love the way you look at me with a sparkle in your eye.

I love the way you whisper my name and think you are so sly.

I love the way you act so crazy just to make me smile.

I love the way you hold me tight even if it is just for a while.

I love the way you hold my hand and walk with me at the park.

I love the way you make your desires clear with no mercy like a shark.

I love the way you talk to me as if you have nothing to hide.

I love the way you listen to me I know in you I can confide.

I love the way you kiss me deeply and make it last forever.

I love the way you touch my body, each touch a new endeavor.

I love the way you make love to me and the whole world disappears.

I love the way you love me, with your love I have no fears.

TABOO

Taboo, what does that mean to you?

Does it mean the sexy secret things you shouldn't do?

Or is it the breaking of rules not meant to be broken?

Is it dating someone you shouldn't date?

Hating someone you shouldn't hate?

Loving someone you shouldn't love?

Is it crossing that line not meant to be crossed?

Is it doing something because you know you can

Even though you know you shouldn't?

Is what is Taboo for you Taboo for me too?

Taboo? What does that mean to you?

Is it doing what you've always been told you're not supposed to do?

If you don't get caught is what you did still considered Taboo?

Is it doing what you want even though society says no?

Does your conscience make what you do Taboo?

Taboo? What does that mean to you?

IT IS HEAVEN

LOVE...IT IS TWO

YET BEING ONLY ONE

A MAN...A WOMAN

FUSED INTO AN ANGEL

IT IS HEAVEN

A VOW

WHEN LOVE IS CHALLENGED

IT GROWS MORE SURE

UNITING TWO HEARTS

WITH BONDS THAT ENDURE

FULLFILLING A PROMISE

PLEDGED WITH GOLD

TO CHERISH FOREVER

TO HAVE AND TO HOLD

SWIMMING WITH OTTERS

Drifting silently on the quiet waters

the wind whispering secrets through my hair

warm sunlight caresses my creamy white skin

and shimmers in the wake of swimming otters.

Rocking gently on the quiet waters

the boat wandering from here to there

my mind begins to wonder and spin

as I gaze at the swimming otters.

Gliding gracefully in the quiet waters

the fish conspire to avoid their snare

how quickly their sleek bodies move within

the shadows of the playful swimming otters.

Submerging slowly into quiet waters

my thought escaping into the warm air

nature takes over as I sink in

and I am swimming with otters.

FREEDOM 1990

If you wanted peace you should have spoken louder before

Now the choice has been made and it's time to go to war

The war may not be ours to fight, but its freedom we are fighting for.

I've thought long and hard of what this war means to me

I have decided that it is supposed to be

I know that if I lost my right to be free

I would pray that someone would help get it back for me.

We are Americans, born to be free

Proud of the heritage Given to you and me

You cry for peace and freedom from the war

But freedom is what our soldiers are fighting for.

Sometimes I think we take for granted

What the fathers of This country fought for

If it was our freedom on the line

Would it be so bad to go to war?

I CRY

I don't sleep, I don't eat, I don't drean

I cry

I don't hate, I don't love, I don't feel

I cry

Memories haunt me

The future taunts me

I cry

& the tears are real

OBSESSION

obsession

is that what it is that I am feeling?

is that the reason I am not healing?

obsession

is this why my heart doesn't matter?

is this why so many tears pitter patter?

obsession

is that why I don't let go of this man?

why I cannot reconstruct my lifes plan?

obsession

is this why I can't hear what others say?

is this the reason I'm wasting away?

OBSESSION

I LOSE 4/7/04

Every time I trust you

I lose

Every time I love you

I lose

Every time I give you my heart

I lose

Every time I lose myself in you

I lose

It seems I have nothing of me left to lose

When I am no longer there for you

You will see you are the one who has lost

But I still lose

BLUE 4/7/04

It's funny how sadness is described as feeling blue

My eyes are darkest blue while crying over you

For the moment I am happy but is it to good to be true?

My moments of happiness with you have far to few

My eyes are still blue, only a slightly lighter hue

It seems they are anticipating what mistake you will do

The tears are there waiting for you to give them their cue

When the sadness returns the dark blue will renew

BROKEN 1/24/06

I'd rather be beaten than broken

Bruises on the outside can be hid

Bruises on the outside soon fade away

Broken bones can mend with time

Beating is a punishable crime

I'd rather be beaten than broken

A fake smile can't hide the bruises inside my soul

Tears give away the bruises on my heart

Broken hearts also mend with time

Breaking a heart is not a punishable crime

I'd rather be beaten than broken

At least at some point it comes to an end

With a beating I have the chance to defend

The hurt is on the outside and doesn't last long

A beating doesn't make me cry everytime I hear our song

I'd rather be beaten than broken

The hurt inside my soul is unrelenting

My unconditional love blinded me from preventing

Tears from the pain in my heart are unending

Every sad love song has my tears descending

MY SYMPATHIES

In your time of loss and tragedy

when you're feeling down and raggedy

when the whole world seems in disarray

Remember, it is just today.

Open up your heart to the promise of tomorrow

Watch the sun rise to take away your sorrow

Watch the children play carefree

Remember what it is to be happy

Time heals all wounds, so they say

Yes, it will take more than one day

I offer my condolences to all of you

My heart felt sympathies, may God bless you.

GOODBYES ARE NEVER EASY

I am a Mom

My Kids come before everything

I have a Son

For him I would do anything

I am a Mom

I love my kids with all my heart

I have a Son

With who I had to part

I am a Mom

My love is unconditional

I have a Son

Our family is untraditional

I am a Mom

Who had to make a choice

I have a Son

with an opinion and voice

I am a Mom

of a son who struggles with Authority

I have a Son

Who I have made my priority

I am a Mom

Who had to let go of pride

I have a Son

Who now with his Father does reside

I am a Mom

I have done all I can

I have a Son

Who needs the influence of a Man

I am a Mom

Who realized I couldnt do it all.

I have a Son

Who into crime I refuse to let him fall

I am a Mom

Who realized her Son needs his Dad

I have a Son

And without him I am sad

LE ME BE 12/31/03

Let me be a memory

That always brings a smile

Let me be a daydream

That makes you happy for a while

Let me be a fantasy

The sexy Romantic style

Let me be the past

A happy memory file

SHADOW IN MY HEART

There is a shadow in my heart

A heavy sigh in my soul

I dont know where to start

To make the emptiness whole

Ever since you left my side

You have never left my mind

My feelings I cannot hide

I've tried, I've tried, I've tried

To make the wrongs go right

I've cried, I've cried, I've cried

Everyday and every night.

ME 6/17/96

When I look at myself in the mirror

I never see the same person twice

A daughter, a sister, a lover, a mom

A teacher, a student, a friend, and a foe

Sometimes she's young and sometimes she's old

She can be warm or she can be cold.

Once in a while she's beautiful and thin

Most of the time she's fat and ugly within

Sometimes I see a soul who is broken

Other times she's brave , bold, and outspoken

One minute happy, the next minute sad

She could be content or maybe mad

A woman, a child, both are inside

When one is out the other will hide

I know all these people are me

When I look in the mirror they are who I see.

TUG OF WAR 6/16/96

My life is like a Tug of War

My spirits needs for complete control and complete freedom

Are battling my needs for love and commitment

My heart and my conscience are the audience

Watching, Waiting to see who wins, but not cheering for either side

My heart has no feeling and my conscience is silent

The battle of the two sides is at a standstill

Both sides are equally matched in importance and strength

My only question is which side will tire first

So that I can open my heart to feeling

And my conscience will be able to guide me again.

QUIET CONFIDENCE

Quiet

As he passes

Flirting with dark eyes

Quiet

As he sits

Underneath dark skies

Quiet

As he watches

While I try to disguise..my eyes

Quiet

As he smiles

Is he walking my way

Quiet

As he walks

Yes, this will be the day

Quiet

As he turns

All he has to say, "This Way."

WORDS

Words

they are a part of me

Words

express the very heart of me

Words

of inspiration, infatuation

Words

of even degradation

Words

they are a part of me

Words

to express what I feel

Words

to express how I deal

Words

of love and lust

Words

of hate and disgust

Words

they are the very heart of me

Words

not so easily spoken

Words

when my heart is broken

Words

they come and go

Words

aren't just for show

Words

they are a part of me

Words

they are the very heart of me.

LETTER TO THE NATION 2008

I speak every day to my Sisters and Brothers
All of them family, all from different mothers.
They're in a country not their own.
Risking life, counting days till they come home.
They believe in their cause, believe in their fight.
They have to believe to get thru the fears of the night.
In this letter to the nation I want them to know,
There are those of us at home with tears that flow.
Families at home supporting our soldiers.
After all, they are just doing a job, following orders.
The orders of a government who is trying to save face.
May they all come home safely with Gods Grace.

I'm in love with a Gangsta

I'm in love with a Gangsta
Don't you know, it's just my luck
Look at him, he's fine as fuck.
I'm in love with a Gangsta
Every night he's out past two
I tell myself, "Girl, whatcha gonna do?"
I'm in love with a Gangsta
With his nine strapped to his side
All the times he almost died.
I'm in love with a Gangsta
& when he comes into my bed
It's kissin and touchin with no words said.
I'm in love with a Gangsta.... A Gangsta
ooooh and when he comes to do the night thing
It's so hard to do the right thing.

VALENTINE

I'll start with toes painted red
Legs, silky smooth spread across the bed
A satin red teddy barely covering my ass
Champagne bubbling over in my crystal glass
In a candlelit room with bedroom eyes
We meet with a kiss and passionate cries
In each others arms we fall to the floor
onto a soft bearskin rug as you sigh for more.

YOUR HEART

ALL YOUR HEART CAN DO IS FEEL
IT DOES NOT SEE
IT DOES NOT HEAR
YOUR MIND HAS EARS AND EYES
DONT RELY ON WHAT YOU FEEL
RELY ON WHAT YOU KNOW TO BE.

WINTER LOVE

In the Quiet, all around
Softly, gently, falling down
Whispering thru the winter breeze,
Blanketing the barren trees
White and fluffy to the eye
Falling from the darkened sky
What a beautiful sight it is to see
The snow fallling just for you and me.
At the cabin in the woods
We put on our coats with hoods
Out we go to brave the cold
Making snow angels never gets old.
Back inside by the fire
There is a warmth that will transpire
Outside snow falls gently in the night
Inside glowing embers of desire burn bright.

WHY DOES RACE EQUAL COLOR?

Why does race equal color?
Who decided to use the color black to describe dark chocolate brown skin?
Black is the color of a dark moonless night.
A night that is clear with no clouds and no stars.
A uniform beauty that is peacefully beautiful.
Why does race equal color?
Who decided the color white would be the color to describe my skin?
White is the color of the brightest full moon.
A majestic beauty that is etherally beautiful.
Why does race equal color?
Who decided one color should be better than another?
The colors black and white both exist independently &
They coexist splendidly in the heavens created by God.
Why do the colors white and black not coexist splendidly &
independently here on his six day miracle creation?
Why does race equal color?
Together the Majestic dark of the night and the shining white of the Etheral moon
illuminate precious stars that twinkle uniquely.
Each color by themselve equally beautiful.
Together, they have inspired lifetimes of artistic expressions of their beauty.
Why does race equal color?
Who decided all things dark are negative and all things light are positive?
Who decided to accept that desciption?
Internally we are all the same, born the same, breathe the same, bleed the same.
Who decided race equals color?
Who will decide to deny that description?
Who will decide to find equalness in their uniqueness?
Who will deny accepting their position by skin recognition?
Who will accept both colors, white and black, as uniquely beautiful?
Who will believe the colors, black and white, harmoniously
creat uniquely expressive etheral beauty.

ROMANCE

Whateva happened to romance?
Or falling in love at first glance?
Now you just wanna get in my pants
Gamin' with all your little boy rants.
It ain't that easy to be with me
I'm a single mom with a family
You just wanna have fun
but I'm lookin out for Number 1.

Whateva happened to romance?
Silly boy you have no chance
Yes I know I look good to you
Can you see more than my ass, Boo?
I live in todays reality
I got brains and personality
It's not all about the sex, boy
I am a woman, not a toy.
Whateva happened to romance?
a lil flair to enhance
Holdin hands and takin walks
Up all night heart to heart talks.
Dinners by candlelight
Soft music to get the mood right
Im not just a one night stand
So Romance I must demand.
Whateva happened to Romance?
Jumpin in to take a chance
Loving with all your heart
Never wanting to be apart.
I want more than just a friend
Someone to be there till the end
If that ain't what you're lookin for
Turn around and walk out my door.

G'Night

G'night

as I kiss you softly on that spot,

behind your ear,

on your neck,

and then, breathe in your scent.

I sigh, in content,

at my success,

in arousing you.

G'night

as I slide my fingers down your arm,

across your chest,

into your hand.

You wonder, what that meant,

I sigh, in content,

at my success,

in teasing you.

G'night

as I move inclose and put my head here,

my leg there,

skin to skin,

and then, I let you in.

I sigh, in content,

at my success,

in pleasing you.

G'night

as I kiss you softly on that spot,

behind your ear,

on your neck,

and then, breathe in your scent.

I sigh, in content,

at my success,

at loving you.

G'night

as I lay in your arms, closing my eyes,

drift off to sleep,

dream of you,

and know, this is what is meant.

I sigh, in content,

at my success

in trusting you.

SEDUCTION

It's in my walk

The way I talk

That look in my eye

When you walk by

Perfumed air

Sexy soft hair

Silky smooth skin

I make your head spin.

I am seducing you

The moment I lay eyes on you.

It's in my smile

Swagga, Lady Style

Sway in my hips

Glossy lucious lips

Jeans fittin tight

Breasts sit up right

I am oozing sexuality

You want me, that's reality.

I am seducing you

The moment I lay eyes on you.

Whispers in your ear

Kisses that seer

Touches that linger

Sucking your finger

Lowering my eyes

Your hand on my thigh

You didn't have a chance

It was lust at first glance.

I am seducing you

The moment I lay eyes on you.

life for "Hoodspeak"

life
Im so sorry you're hurting
wishing I could take your pain
with my words, flirting
hoping to stop its reign
life
Everything happens for a reason
whatever that may be
as time passes and the seasons
may you find clarity
life
Full of senseless tragedies
events that shouldnt be
when you're feeling down, please
know you found a friend in me.

WE DESERVE BETTER

The shootin in my hood again
Young men killing young men
They shootin in my hood again
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But We Deserve Better
I live deep in the hood on the south side
Cant even let the kids play outside
With bullets flyin they run and hide
Cant take that chance so they stay inside.
They shootin in my hood again
Young men killin young men
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But My kids deserve better
Bullets, they dont have a name
The Shooter, he dont have no shame
Everyday for him, its all the same
Doin what he do to stay in the game.
They shootin in my hood again
Young men Killin young men
They shootin in my hood again
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But I deserve better
A single Mom and I work real hard
Live in a big house, have a big yard
Have a pitbull for a guard
Dont own a gun, wont play that card.
They shootin in my hood again
Young men killin young men
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But they deserve better.
I have nightmares for my son
I fear the day he picks up a gun
A young man lookin out for number one
Just one shot and hes on the run
Or just one shot and his life is done.
They shooting in my hood again
Young men killin young men
They shootin in my hood again
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But We Deserve Better.

I CAN BE URS, NEVER 1/6/09

not man enuf to see my face
my hurt, my tears, my eyes
or u r afraid to face
that ur telling urself lies
either reason for the distance
there will come the day
it will all come back in the instance
u know thats what ur eyes will say
in my eyes u will see ur heart
a reflection of my love
as fortold by the stars chart
souls joined by heavens above
distance wont break this connection
thats what u will see
and i will see ur affection
thats why you avoid me.
time will pass and memories will fade
but the love is always there
our next meet no matter how long delayed
u will see the love we share.
but u will still be with her
ill be with whoever
then the hurt will be as it were
i can be urs, never

I AM LOST IN THE DARK 12/30/08

I AM NOT OK
THE SADNESS WONT GO AWAY
I AM LOST IN THE DARK
EYES DULL, NO SPARK
I TRIED TO PRETEND
BUT THE TEARS WONT END
YOU ARE NO LONGER THERE
CANT BREATH, NO AIR
MY WORLD IS CRASHING
EACH BREATH A PAINFUL THRASHING
SLIPPING DEEPER INTO DEPRESSION
CANT SHARE, DARK CONFESSION
I DONT LIKE ME
OR THE ME I USED TO BE
I DONT WANT THIS LIFE
NO ONES LOVE, NO ONES WIFE
I LET MY LOVE GO
KILLING HOPE IN MY SOUL
I CAN NOLONGER GIVE MY HEART
TO DAMAGED, TO TORN APART
no one to hold me
no one consoling me
no one that truly does care
dark confession, cant share
I AM NOT OK
THE SADNESS WONT GO AWAY
I AM LOST IN THE DARK
EYES DULL, NO SPARK

I GAVE YOU ME 7/25/08

I feel everything...
to deeply...
I take everything...
personally...
but its not my fault...
this is who I am...
its not who I pretend to be...I gave u me..........
I gave u my heart...
and my trust...
I let down my guard...
love came from lust...
but its not my fault...
I have fallen...
its not who I pretend to be...I gave u me.................
Im always longing for...
your touches...
Im always dreaming of...
ur kisses...
but its not my fault...
Im in love with u...
its not who I pretend to be...I gave u me............
now Im feelin...
kinda lonely...
and this feelin...
my one and only...
this is my fault...
cuz I knew...
I should not have gave u me...
I should have gave u who I pretend to be..............
now its to late ...
to turn back the clock...
the love i feel for u...
has my heart on lock...
but its not my fault...
u are my friend...
I wasnt who I pretend to be...
cuz You asked me to give you me....
BLU 7-25-08

B.I.T.C.H. 7/30/08

I know u like what u see when u look at my pics..
but u aint gettin with this so stop sendin pics of ya dicks.....
I'd rather see it in person pics dont do nuthin for me...
NO I dont play I show u, u show me...
if u think u got game I wish u good luck...
Im not that girl who just lays down to fuck...
dont even bother if u aint gettin paid...
Yes Im a B.I.T.C.H. and no I dont need to get laid...
I just know what I want and it dont start with lust...
u gotta be on my level or above thats a must....
Im tired of broke dudes who just wanna sex me...
and think I am easy cuz I dont hide my sexy.
I only wanna be friends not tryna holla at u...
if u just wanna fuck dont even holla at Blu...
Yes Im a B.I.T.C.H. and no I dont need to get laid...
it is what it is, enough said.

THIS IS ME THIS IS WHAT I DO 2/3/09

I'M FINALLY OK WITH BEING ME
NO LONGER AM I FEELING LONELY
ACTUALLY PREFERRING BEING SINGLE
FREE TO FLIRT MIX - N - MINGLE
WE CAN BE FRIENDS IF YOU WANT TO
I GIVE U MY WORD TO BE TRU
JUST ASK AROUND MY HOOD
THE WORD OF BLU IS GOOD
BUT DONT ASK FOR MY HEART..
ONCE TOO MANY ITS BEEN RIPPED APART
I CHOOSE TO SIT HOME ALONE
ALL I GOTTA DO IS PICK UP MY PHONE
"ARE U FREE" IS THIER FAVORITE TEXT
IF THEY SAY "NO" ITS ON TO THE NEXT
I'M NOT A PLAYA I'M DOING ME
I'LL GET BACK ATCHU WHEN I'M FREE
I CAN LOVE YOU AS MY FRIEND
MY BROKEN HEART HAS TO MEND
THIS IS ME THIS IS WHAT I DO
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE SEXY BLU?
I DONT NEED YOURS I GOT MY OWN
DONT BE MAD CUZ I'M ACTIN GROWN
IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU IT'S ABOUT ME
YOU'RE JUST ONE FISH IN A SEA OF SEXY
IT'S GONNA BE THE ONE WHO STAYS ON THE LINE
LETS ME REEL HIM IN TO CATCH THIS HEART OF MINE
JUST LETTING YOU KNOW TO STEP UP YOUR GAME
I'M GONNA KEEP THE BIG FISH DONT WANT A LAME
WHEN I FINALLY DO REEL IN MY PRIZE
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE WILL BE IN MY EYES
THIS IS ME THIS IS WHAT I DO
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE SEXY BLU?
I'M FINALLY OK WITH BEING ME
NO LONGER AM I FEELING LONELY