SHADOW IN MY HEART

There is a shadow in my heart

A heavy sigh in my soul

I dont know where to start

To make the emptiness whole

Ever since you left my side

You have never left my mind

My feelings I cannot hide

I've tried, I've tried, I've tried

To make the wrongs go right

I've cried, I've cried, I've cried

Everyday and every night.

ME 6/17/96

When I look at myself in the mirror

I never see the same person twice

A daughter, a sister, a lover, a mom

A teacher, a student, a friend, and a foe

Sometimes she's young and sometimes she's old

She can be warm or she can be cold.

Once in a while she's beautiful and thin

Most of the time she's fat and ugly within

Sometimes I see a soul who is broken

Other times she's brave , bold, and outspoken

One minute happy, the next minute sad

She could be content or maybe mad

A woman, a child, both are inside

When one is out the other will hide

I know all these people are me

When I look in the mirror they are who I see.

TUG OF WAR 6/16/96

My life is like a Tug of War

My spirits needs for complete control and complete freedom

Are battling my needs for love and commitment

My heart and my conscience are the audience

Watching, Waiting to see who wins, but not cheering for either side

My heart has no feeling and my conscience is silent

The battle of the two sides is at a standstill

Both sides are equally matched in importance and strength

My only question is which side will tire first

So that I can open my heart to feeling

And my conscience will be able to guide me again.

QUIET CONFIDENCE

Quiet

As he passes

Flirting with dark eyes

Quiet

As he sits

Underneath dark skies

Quiet

As he watches

While I try to disguise..my eyes

Quiet

As he smiles

Is he walking my way

Quiet

As he walks

Yes, this will be the day

Quiet

As he turns

All he has to say, "This Way."

WORDS

Words

they are a part of me

Words

express the very heart of me

Words

of inspiration, infatuation

Words

of even degradation

Words

they are a part of me

Words

to express what I feel

Words

to express how I deal

Words

of love and lust

Words

of hate and disgust

Words

they are the very heart of me

Words

not so easily spoken

Words

when my heart is broken

Words

they come and go

Words

aren't just for show

Words

they are a part of me

Words

they are the very heart of me.

LETTER TO THE NATION 2008

I speak every day to my Sisters and Brothers
All of them family, all from different mothers.
They're in a country not their own.
Risking life, counting days till they come home.
They believe in their cause, believe in their fight.
They have to believe to get thru the fears of the night.
In this letter to the nation I want them to know,
There are those of us at home with tears that flow.
Families at home supporting our soldiers.
After all, they are just doing a job, following orders.
The orders of a government who is trying to save face.
May they all come home safely with Gods Grace.

I'm in love with a Gangsta

I'm in love with a Gangsta
Don't you know, it's just my luck
Look at him, he's fine as fuck.
I'm in love with a Gangsta
Every night he's out past two
I tell myself, "Girl, whatcha gonna do?"
I'm in love with a Gangsta
With his nine strapped to his side
All the times he almost died.
I'm in love with a Gangsta
& when he comes into my bed
It's kissin and touchin with no words said.
I'm in love with a Gangsta.... A Gangsta
ooooh and when he comes to do the night thing
It's so hard to do the right thing.