Walking in The Rain

Walking in the Rain
Hiding tears again
You will never know my pain
You'll never know, you'll never know
the pain, the pain, the pain, the pain...
To have everything I ever wanted ripped away again and again.
To lose the love of my life and my best friend
Repeatedly, that's my history
And still no peace at the end.
The very core of my soul,
The deepest love in my heart
My first born child's rejection rips me apart
All I can do is love him as always
And keep doing my part.
So don't compare your scars to mine
I'm the best I know at pretending everything is just fine
When inside I'm crying tears never ending
for my broken heart that never has a chance at mending.
I always need to be strong in the eyes of others
always seeking approval, yes, even still, my mothers.
Feels like my life is my purgatory
I pray and pray for a happy ending to my life's story.
My scars run deep and the mask can't hide my eyes
so when there is cloudy skies
I walk in the rain
so I can disguise my pain
as my tears come rolling again
as my tears come rolling again.