INDEPENDENT LADY

It's a hot summer night on the southside

finna get ready to take a li'l ride

Gonna cruise the hood in my pearl Escalady

Gonna sight some brothas

Maybe act a li'l shady

They holla and they flex as I slide by

But I'm still lookin' for the right guy

He's gotta be a hottie

he's gotta stay fly

With a li'l bit of thug in his eye

You all know the Independent lady

White Honey in the pearl Escalady

I learned from my man how to be shady

Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me

So here's a brothas chance to be

down with me

But he's gotta be V.I.P.

not just anybody

Every body's poppin' bottles these days

Downin' themselves in a purple haze

All kindza drink at ev'ry house party

Yes, even the ol' cliche Baccardi

If you're VIP then you've got the Cha Ching

and all the icy icy on your bling bling

If you ain't clubin' you ain't doin the damn thing

NOW LISTEN TO THE PRETTY LADY SING

You all know the Independent Lady

Not lookin' for a yes, just need a maybe

We gonna spend some time , Is that ok baby

Come and take a ride in my Escalady

We gonna cruise the hood sippin on HQ

Baby if you're good mix in the Henny too

If I'm gonna slide I want all to see

You lookin' like the Hottie with the V.I.P.

A li'l bit of street to really sex me

Dont worry bout my man he's history

We're goin' to the club to shake all night

Maybe if I'm lucky there will be a girl fight

He might be there with her if I am right

He's gonna see me in a new light

You all know the Independent Lady

White Honey in a pearl Escalady

Didn't wanna do it but I'm out bein' shady

Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me

So here's a brothas chance to be

Down with me

But he's gotta be V.I.P.

not just anybody

You all know the Independent Lady

White Honey in the pearl Escalady

Not lookin' for a yes just need a maybe

Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me

So come and take a ride in my Escalady

MY HEART STILL LONGS FOR HIM

I think about him, still, after all this time

The way he looks, the way he smells

Sometimes, When I'm sleep

I forget he is gone

I reach for him

He is not there

My heart still longs for him

I sleepwalk through every day, still, daydreaming

About his laugh, his smile

Sometimes, when I'm out

I think I hear him

I turn around

He is not there

My heart still longs for him

I love him, still, after all this time

all his mistakes, all his lies

All the time, I miss him

I just want to be with him

But I cannot

He is not there

My heart still longs for him

GOODBYE LOVE

I let go of my heart today

I said goodbye to my love

It's the hardest thing I ever had to say

I said goodbye to my love

I removed the ring he gave to me

I said goodbye to my love

I erased every trace that I could see

I said goodbye to my love

It's sad to me he wont know our daughter

I said goodbye to my love

I wipe away those tears remembering he didn't want her

I said goodbye to my love

It is now time for me to grieve

I said goodbye to my love

I still dont understand why he had to leave

I said goodbye to my love

CRACK WIDOW 2007

Once I was in love and soared through the heavens. He was my lover and my best friend for eight years. Life wasn't perfect but it was adventurous and fullfilling. My Love was stolen from me by the devil of all drugs. My heart bounds me to this weary planet where I mourn the loss of my love. Although he is still living, he is the walking dead. Seeing him on the street makes me cry remembering the man he used to be. Listening to my daughter cry for her father breaks my heart, knowing that I am not only denying myself I am also denying her the love we both long for. He cannot see past his own wants and needs. He cannot hear the pleas from his family, his friends, or me to get the help he needs to come back to us. He is addicted to the devil of all drugs and the man he was he is no more.

I want to soar the heavens again. I'm afraid there is no one who can help me until I have found my release from the grief that binds me here. I'm afraid that day will never come.
I dont know how to let go of my love for the man he was or my sorrow for the man he now is.
I am a crack widow.

BOY TOY

Out rollin' in my blue jeans and white T
Bustin in a new pair of Nike
My ass lookin' Mighty, Mighty
I wear more bling than Ice T
My future's lookin' brightly
And now your girl , she wanna fight me

It's not my fault you're a play boy
I didn't know I was just your boy toy
finally free from you, I jump for joy
Now you only call me just to annoy
with the charms you try to deploy
your girls heart you did destroy

I didnt know the affect you would have on me
The hypnotic trance of your eyes held me fondly
I never asked to fall for you completely
What will I do, now that Im free
You still hanging around not letting me be
It's hard to walk away Independently

It should be her heart you seek, not mine
I didnt know bout her, thought I was your Valentine
I know our friendship was hard to define
What is it about me that gets you to cross the line
Why didn't I see the signs
Get out of my mind. Get out of my mind.

Hard at work tryin' to replace you
Better get your girl, that's what you should do
Tell her to pay me no mind cuz you and I are through
It wasn't only me. It takes two
You were chasing me, if she only knew
It's your fault , you shoulda stayed true.

Out rollin' in my blue jeans and white T
Bustin in a new pair of Nike
The ass is lookin mighty , mighty
I'm wearin' more Ice than Ice T
My future is lookin' brightly
And now your girl she wanna fight me

I didn't know you were a play boy
Didn't know I was just your boy toy
finally free from you I jump for joy
Now you only call me just to annoy
with the charming ways you deploy
my trust in you you did destroy

TEARS FALL

Tears
fall
one
by
one
from deep glassy pools of blue
One
by
one
tears
fall
from a pain that has no mirrored reflection at the source
One
by
one
tears
stream
over a pale white saddened surface
One
by
one
tears
fall
from one who has loved and lost love in a battle
Won
by
One
Tears Fall

LOVED BY ME

I want to kiss you behind your ears

I want to be the one to ease your fears

I want to hold you close to me

And show you what it's like to be

Loved by me

I want to put my arms around you tight

Cuddle up to you every night

Tell you everything is gonna be alright

And show you what it's like to be

Loved by me

I want to look into your eyes

And know I will hear no lies

I want to hold you close to me

And show what it's like to be

Loved by me

You wanna know how it would be

If you was to be with me

Just take me by the hand

Let's walk on the beach in the sand

As the waves splash our feet

I pull you close and our lips meet

As we walk along the shore

I will make your heart soar

I know what I have to do

I have to give all my love to you

And show you what its like to be

Loved by me