Once I find me 10/24/2020

I remember you like yesterday

You are the one I let get away

I will find my heart, my soul, myself again

I  am wondering where I have been

Once I find me, the healing will begin

Forever, my own best friend

Love myself first till the end 

Eyes 10/24/2020

Eyes, can be so betraying

They speak the opposite of what you are saying

There, that twinkle, gives away the lies

Hard words spoken just to disguise

That little smirk makes the eyes squint

The bright fiery coals of your soul glint

Claiming a heart of limited space

The eyes seeking a soft, safe, loving place

Eyes Sharp as the hunter stalking prey

looking for a softer heart to slay.

He Knows 10/29/2020

He knows

The darkness inside me

That I wont even write about.

He knows

The turbulence in my soul

How my heart and my mind fight it out.

He knows

The silence of my thoughts

Is how deafening the pain can shout.

He knows

All the secrets I hide

And still believes in me with out a doubt.

I don't move like you do 9/9/20

While you are out here trying to make yourself a name

and running around still playing teenager games

I'm out here being grown.

Everything I have got I have got on my own.

I make sure the kids and I have everything we need.

I don't live my life based on greed.

But know this, just because I don't move like you do

That doesn't mean I don't make a move or two.

You have your schedule and I have mine.

When I am ready, remember, you stepped out of line.

I didn't know the friendship wasn't real.

My desire is more mental which makes the fire more surreal.

Embers need to be fanned lightly to burn higher

Too much oxygen, too fast, puts out the fire.

I know, life is short and we never know what tomorrow brings.

You don't get what you want by forcing the song bird who isn't ready to spread her wings

Morning, Noon, and Night 12/16/20

Why should I make you my Morning, Noon, and Night?

When it isn't me you seek at mornings light?

You get what you give with me.

I'm Nobody's Fool... Nobody

You want everyone around you to let you be you?

Go ahead and be You boo.

Just know that I'm going to be me and do me too.

You get what you give with me.

Don't like it? I don't really care my G.

You can change or leave.

You can take what you give or be faithful?

 No?

Then its a wrap. 

Go ahead and go.

I Write

I write to stay alive and survive when the thoughts in my head make me wish  I were dead,

I write to relieve and to breathe when life is not fair and the pain is sucking all my air,

I write to know, to understand and to grow when conflicting emotions are confusing my loyalties and devotions,

I write for me and to give my words a place to express free when there is doubt I can trust anyone to let me talk it all out,

I write to dream because as free as I seem there is a huge wall holding me captive and keeping me small,

I write to feel because the numbness is very real when I know what I know and I still cant let go,

I write just because and to relive what once was when the present Im living is no longer pleasant,

I write for you to arouse an emotion or two with passionate poetry with hopes you will dote on me,

I write because that is what I do, for me to know me and for you to know me too,

writing is the most honest thing I do and it is truly my pleasure to share it with you.

I've Had Better Days

 

I’ve had better days

Lazy Days

And some very hazy days

S A T U R D A Y S

Are my favorite days

Sunny days

Or rainy days

Icy cold, my least fave days

Even less than Mondays

All the memories of Yesterdays

I love to reminisce the days

The optimism for future days

Still A M A Z E!