Thursday, January 21, 2010

INDEPENDENT LADY

It's a hot summer night on the southside
finna get ready to take a li'l ride
Gonna cruise the hood in my pearl Escalady
Gonna sight some brothas
Maybe act a li'l shady
They holla and they flex as I slide by
But I'm still lookin' for the right guy
He's gotta be a hottie
he's gotta stay fly
With a li'l bit of thug in his eye
You all know the Independent lady
White Honey in the pearl Escalady
I learned from my man how to be shady
Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me
So here's a brothas chance to be
down with me
But he's gotta be V.I.P.
not just anybody
Every body's poppin' bottles these days
Downin' themselves in a purple haze
All kindza drink at ev'ry house party
Yes, even the ol' cliche Baccardi
If you're VIP then you've got the Cha Ching
and all the icy icy on your bling bling
If you ain't clubin' you ain't doin the damn thing
NOW LISTEN TO THE PRETTY LADY SING
You all know the Independent Lady
Not lookin' for a yes, just need a maybe
We gonna spend some time , Is that ok baby
Come and take a ride in my Escalady
We gonna cruise the hood sippin on HQ
Baby if you're good mix in the Henny too
If I'm gonna slide I want all to see
You lookin' like the Hottie with the V.I.P.
A li'l bit of street to really sex me
Dont worry bout my man he's history
We're goin' to the club to shake all night
Maybe if I'm lucky there will be a girl fight
He might be there with her if I am right
He's gonna see me in a new light
You all know the Independent Lady
White Honey in a pearl Escalady
Didn't wanna do it but I'm out bein' shady
Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me
So here's a brothas chance to be
Down with me
But he's gotta be V.I.P.
not just anybody
You all know the Independent Lady
White Honey in the pearl Escalady
Not lookin' for a yes just need a maybe
Didn't wanna slide but baby he made me
So come and take a ride in my Escalady

MY HEART STILL LONGS FOR HIM

I think about him, still, after all this time
The way he looks, the way he smells
Sometimes, When I'm sleep
I forget he is gone
I reach for him
He is not there
My heart still longs for him
I sleepwalk through every day, still, daydreaming
About his laugh, his smile
Sometimes, when I'm out
I think I hear him
I turn around
He is not there
My heart still longs for him
I love him, still, after all this time
all his mistakes, all his lies
All the time, I miss him
I just want to be with him
But I cannot
He is not there
My heart still longs for him

GOODBYE LOVE

I let go of my heart today
I said goodbye to my love
It's the hardest thing I ever had to say
I said goodbye to my love
I removed the ring he gave to me
I said goodbye to my love
I erased every trace that I could see
I said goodbye to my love
It's sad to me he wont know our daughter
I said goodbye to my love
I wipe away those tears remembering he didn't want her
I said goodbye to my love
It is now time for me to grieve
I said goodbye to my love
I still dont understand why he had to leave
I said goodbye to my love

CRACK WIDOW 2007

Once I was in love and soared through the heavens. He was my lover and my best friend for eight years. Life wasn't perfect but it was adventurous and fullfilling. My Love was stolen from me by the devil of all drugs. My heart bounds me to this weary planet where I mourn the loss of my love. Although he is still living, he is the walking dead. Seeing him on the street makes me cry remembering the man he used to be. Listening to my daughter cry for her father breaks my heart, knowing that I am not only denying myself I am also denying her the love we both long for. He cannot see past his own wants and needs. He cannot hear the pleas from his family, his friends, or me to get the help he needs to come back to us. He is addicted to the devil of all drugs and the man he was he is no more.

I want to soar the heavens again. I'm afraid there is no one who can help me until I have found my release from the grief that binds me here. I'm afraid that day will never come.
I dont know how to let go of my love for the man he was or my sorrow for the man he now is.
I am a crack widow.

BOY TOY

Out rollin' in my blue jeans and white T
Bustin in a new pair of Nike
My ass lookin' Mighty, Mighty
I wear more bling than Ice T
My future's lookin' brightly
And now your girl , she wanna fight me

It's not my fault you're a play boy
I didn't know I was just your boy toy
finally free from you, I jump for joy
Now you only call me just to annoy
with the charms you try to deploy
your girls heart you did destroy

I didnt know the affect you would have on me
The hypnotic trance of your eyes held me fondly
I never asked to fall for you completely
What will I do, now that Im free
You still hanging around not letting me be
It's hard to walk away Independently

It should be her heart you seek, not mine
I didnt know bout her, thought I was your Valentine
I know our friendship was hard to define
What is it about me that gets you to cross the line
Why didn't I see the signs
Get out of my mind. Get out of my mind.

Hard at work tryin' to replace you
Better get your girl, that's what you should do
Tell her to pay me no mind cuz you and I are through
It wasn't only me. It takes two
You were chasing me, if she only knew
It's your fault , you shoulda stayed true.

Out rollin' in my blue jeans and white T
Bustin in a new pair of Nike
The ass is lookin mighty , mighty
I'm wearin' more Ice than Ice T
My future is lookin' brightly
And now your girl she wanna fight me

I didn't know you were a play boy
Didn't know I was just your boy toy
finally free from you I jump for joy
Now you only call me just to annoy
with the charming ways you deploy
my trust in you you did destroy

TEARS FALL

Tears
fall
one
by
one
from deep glassy pools of blue
One
by
one
tears
fall
from a pain that has no mirrored reflection at the source
One
by
one
tears
stream
over a pale white saddened surface
One
by
one
tears
fall
from one who has loved and lost love in a battle
Won
by
One
Tears Fall

LOVED BY ME

I want to kiss you behind your ears
I want to be the one to ease your fears
I want to hold you close to me
And show you what it's like to be
Loved by me
I want to put my arms around you tight
Cuddle up to you every night
Tell you everything is gonna be alright
And show you what it's like to be
Loved by me
I want to look into your eyes
And know I will hear no lies
I want to hold you close to me
And show what it's like to be
Loved by me
You wanna know how it would be
If you was to be with me
Just take me by the hand
Let's walk on the beach in the sand
As the waves splash our feet
I pull you close and our lips meet
As we walk along the shore
I will make your heart soar
I know what I have to do
I have to give all my love to you
And show you what its like to be
Loved by me

THE IDEA OF YOU 2002

The idea of you is Poetry
The way you swagga and sway
As you walk across the room
The gleam in your eye as you smile and flirt
The scent of your cologne as you walk by
oh my
But your voice, so smooth, so silky
Gets me so hot
I love it when you call my name
And when you call me baby
Even when you tell me maybe
I imagine what it would be like
To feel your skin touching mine
To feel your breath in my ear as you hold me near
I wonder what your fingers feel like
on the small of my back
And what they would feel like
When you slide them up into my hair
And pull my head back
I day dream about your succulent lips
caressing my neck, my breast, my thigh
The very thought of you inside of me
Brings out a sigh
I find the more I'm near you
the more these thoughts cross my mind
Sometimes they are so vivd and clear
Reality gets left behind
When I look into your eyes I try to see
If thoughts of me tempt you
When you whipser my name
I know that they do.

ODE TO CUPID

Oh winged creature who floats soft in the air
And did pierce my heart deep with your arrow
Oh with your Angelic soft flesh, and golden hair
You captured my heart quick as a sparrow
Oh protector and giver of love and care
You made me see plain man as Pharoh
Oh Cupid, our hearts you combined as one
Sealed with honeydew never to come undone

CRAVING ME


Do you crave these lips
My tongue and sweet taste?
Do you crave these hips
My thighs and small waist?
Do you crave this body
My soft skin and curves?
Do you crave this hottie?
Do I excite those nerves?

THE LONELY WOMAN'S CHRISTMAS WISH 2003

All I want for Christmas is a man with a plan
One who has all his teeth and maybe a tan
He would have to have his own money and a REAL job
He would have to be outgoing, I dont want a snob
All I want for Christmas is a man who treats me right
One who knows where his home is and isn't out all night
He would take me out dancing once in a while
One who when I came home from work would greet me with a smile
All I want for Christmas is a man who will give me his heart
Even if he's only kinda cute and only kinda smart
He doesnt have to be perfect in every little way
Santa, do u think you could bring him before Christmas day?

LONELY NEW YEAR 2002

What will the new year bring?
I know it's not a shiny new ring
Probably more lonely cold nights
where i sit at home with no lights
My heart saddens at the thought
Sometimes I wish love could be bought
Maybe then I would have a chance
To find true love at first glance
My heart aches every day
For the love I felt has went away
I feel nothing inside, Im numb
When my son's father calls me dumb
His words dont hurt me anymore
Why wont he just walk out the door?
I have nothing left to give
Sometimes I dont even want to live
I see not future love for me
I AM DESTINED TO BE LONELY

CHRISTMAS TEARS 2002

Christmas should be filled with joy
Laughter for every girl and boy
But smiles wont be on my face
A stream of tears will take their place
Because I am forced to live in hell
With a man who cannot tell
That I dont want him in my life
And I will never be his wife
Anger, sorrow and depression
Will leave an everlasting impression
On my lonely empty heart
The sadness I fear will never depart
I no longer like the holiday season
Without love there is no reason
So no smiles will you see from me
Till my tormentor sets me free

HOW DO I LOVE THEE

How do I love thee, let me count the ways.
I love the way you look at me with a sparkle in your eye.
I love the way you whisper my name and think you are so sly.
I love the way you act so crazy just to make me smile.
I love the way you hold me tight even if it is just for a while.
I love the way you hold my hand and walk with me at the park.
I love the way you make your desires clear with no mercy like a shark.
I love the way you talk to me as if you have nothing to hide.
I love the way you listen to me I know in you I can confide.
I love the way you kiss me deeply and make it last forever.
I love the way you touch my body, each touch a new endeavor.
I love the way you make love to me and the whole world disappears.
I love the way you love me, with your love I have no fears.

TABOO

Taboo, what does that mean to you?
Does it mean the sexy secret things you shouldn't do?
Or is it the breaking of rules not meant to be broken?
Is it dating someone you shouldn't date?
Hating someone you shouldn't hate?
Loving someone you shouldn't love?
Is it crossing that line not meant to be crossed?
Is it doing something because you know you can
Even though you know you shouldn't?
Is what is Taboo for you Taboo for me too?
Taboo? What does that mean to you?
Is it doing what you've always been told you're not supposed to do?
If you don't get caught is what you did still considered Taboo?
Is it doing what you want even though society says no?
Does your conscience make what you do Taboo?
Taboo? What does that mean to you?

IT IS HEAVEN


LOVE...IT IS TWO
YET BEING ONLY ONE
A MAN...A WOMAN
FUSED INTO AN ANGEL
IT IS HEAVEN

A VOW

WHEN LOVE IS CHALLENGED
IT GROWS MORE SURE
UNITING TWO HEARTS
WITH BONDS THAT ENDURE
FULLFILLING A PROMISE
PLEDGED WITH GOLD
TO CHERISH FOREVER
TO HAVE AND TO HOLD

SWIMMING WITH OTTERS

Drifting silently on the quiet waters
the wind whispering secrets through my hair
warm sunlight caresses my creamy white skin
and shimmers in the wake of swimming otters.
Rocking gently on the quiet waters
the boat wandering from here to there
my mind begins to wonder and spin
as I gaze at the swimming otters.
Gliding gracefully in the quiet waters
the fish conspire to avoid their snare
how quickly their sleek bodies move within
the shadows of the playful swimming otters.
Submerging slowly into quiet waters
my thought escaping into the warm air
nature takes over as I sink in
and I am swimming with otters.

FREEDOM 1990

If you wanted peace you should have spoken louder before
Now the choice has been made and it's time to go to war
The war may not be ours to fight, but its freedom we are fighting for.
I've thought long and hard of what this war means to me
I have decided that it is supposed to be
I know that if I lost my right to be free
I would pray that someone would help get it back for me.
We are Americans, born to be free
Proud of the heritage Given to you and me
You cry for peace and freedom from the war
But freedom is what our soldiers are fighting for.
Sometimes I think we take for granted
What the fathers of This country fought for
If it was our freedom on the line
Would it be so bad to go to war?

I CRY


I don't sleep, I don't eat, I don't drean
I cry
I don't hate, I don't love, I don't feel
I cry
Memories haunt me
The future taunts me
I cry
& the tears are real

OBSESSION

obsession

is that what it is that I am feeling?

is that the reason I am not healing?

obsession

is this why my heart doesn't matter?

is this why so many tears pitter patter?

obsession

is that why I don't let go of this man?

why I cannot reconstruct my lifes plan?

obsession

is this why I can't hear what others say?

is this the reason I'm wasting away?

OBSESSION

I LOSE 4/7/04

Every time I trust you
I lose
Every time I love you
I lose
Every time I give you my heart
I lose
Every time I lose myself in you
I lose
It seems I have nothing of me left to lose
When I am no longer there for you
You will see you are the one who has lost
But I still lose

BLUE 4/7/04

It's funny how sadness is described as feeling blue
My eyes are darkest blue while crying over you
For the moment I am happy but is it to good to be true?
My moments of happiness with you have far to few
My eyes are still blue, only a slightly lighter hue
It seems they are anticipating what mistake you will do
The tears are there waiting for you to give them their cue
When the sadness returns the dark blue will renew

BROKEN 1/24/06


I'd rather be beaten than broken
Bruises on the outside can be hid
Bruises on the outside soon fade away
Broken bones can mend with time
Beating is a punishable crime
I'd rather be beaten than broken
A fake smile can't hide the bruises inside my soul
Tears give away the bruises on my heart
Broken hearts also mend with time
Breaking a heart is not a punishable crime
I'd rather be beaten than broken
At least at some point it comes to an end
With a beating I have the chance to defend
The hurt is on the outside and doesn't last long
A beating doesn't make me cry everytime I hear our song
I'd rather be beaten than broken
The hurt inside my soul is unrelenting
My unconditional love blinded me from preventing
Tears from the pain in my heart are unending
Every sad love song has my tears descending

MY SYMPATHIES


In your time of loss and tragedy
when you're feeling down and raggedy
when the whole world seems in disarray
Remember, it is just today.
Open up your heart to the promise of tomorrow
Watch the sun rise to take away your sorrow
Watch the children play carefree
Remember what it is to be happy
Time heals all wounds, so they say
Yes, it will take more than one day
I offer my condolences to all of you
My heart felt sympathies, may God bless you.

GOODBYES ARE NEVER EASY

I am a Mom
My Kids come before everything
I have a Son
For him I would do anything
I am a Mom
I love my kids with all my heart
I have a Son
With who I had to part
I am a Mom
My love is unconditional
I have a Son
Our family is untraditional
I am a Mom
Who had to make a choice
I have a Son
with an opinion and voice
I am a Mom
of a son who struggles with Authority
I have a Son
Who I have made my priority
I am a Mom
Who had to let go of pride
I have a Son
Who now with his Father does reside
I am a Mom
I have done all I can
I have a Son
Who needs the influence of a Man
I am a Mom
Who realized I couldnt do it all.
I have a Son
Who into crime I refuse to let him fall
I am a Mom
Who realized her Son needs his Dad
I have a Son
And without him I am sad

LE ME BE 12/31/03


Let me be a memory
That always brings a smile
Let me be a daydream
That makes you happy for a while
Let me be a fantasy
The sexy Romantic style
Let me be the past
A happy memory file

SHADOW IN MY HEART

There is a shadow in my heart
A heavy sigh in my soul
I dont know where to start
To make the emptiness whole
Ever since you left my side
You have never left my mind
My feelings I cannot hide
I've tried, I've tried, I've tried
To make the wrongs go right
I've cried, I've cried, I've cried
Everyday and every night.

ME 6/17/96

When I look at myself in the mirror
I never see the same person twice
A daughter, a sister, a lover, a mom
A teacher, a student, a friend, and a foe
Sometimes she's young and sometimes she's old
She can be warm or she can be cold.
Once in a while she's beautiful and thin
Most of the time she's fat and ugly within
Sometimes I see a soul who is broken
Other times she's brave , bold, and outspoken
One minute happy, the next minute sad
She could be content or maybe mad
A woman, a child, both are inside
When one is out the other will hide
I know all these people are me
When I look in the mirror they are who I see.

TUG OF WAR 6/16/96

My life is like a Tug of War
My spirits needs for complete control and complete freedom
Are battling my needs for love and commitment
My heart and my conscience are the audience
Watching, Waiting to see who wins, but not cheering for either side
My heart has no feeling and my conscience is silent
The battle of the two sides is at a standstill
Both sides are equally matched in importance and strength
My only question is which side will tire first
So that I can open my heart to feeling
And my conscience will be able to guide me again.

QUIET CONFIDENCE


Quiet
As he passes
Flirting with dark eyes
Quiet
As he sits
Underneath dark skies
Quiet
As he watches
While I try to disguise..my eyes
Quiet
As he smiles
Is he walking my way
Quiet
As he walks
Yes, this will be the day
Quiet
As he turns
All he has to say, "This Way."

WORDS

Words
they are a part of me
Words
express the very heart of me
Words
of inspiration, infatuation
Words
of even degradation
Words
they are a part of me
Words
to express what I feel
Words
to express how I deal
Words
of love and lust
Words
of hate and disgust
Words
they are the very heart of me
Words
not so easily spoken
Words
when my heart is broken
Words
they come and go
Words
aren't just for show
Words
they are a part of me
Words
they are the very heart of me.

LETTER TO THE NATION 2008

I speak every day to my Sisters and Brothers
All of them family, all from different mothers.
They're in a country not their own.
Risking life, counting days till they come home.
They believe in their cause, believe in their fight.
They have to believe to get thru the fears of the night.
In this letter to the nation I want them to know,
There are those of us at home with tears that flow.
Families at home supporting our soldiers.
After all, they are just doing a job, following orders.
The orders of a government who is trying to save face.
May they all come home safely with Gods Grace.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I'm in love with a Gangsta

I'm in love with a Gangsta
Don't you know, it's just my luck
Look at him, he's fine as fuck.
I'm in love with a Gangsta
Every night he's out past two
I tell myself, "Girl, whatcha gonna do?"
I'm in love with a Gangsta
With his nine strapped to his side
All the times he almost died.
I'm in love with a Gangsta
& when he comes into my bed
It's kissin and touchin with no words said.
I'm in love with a Gangsta.... A Gangsta
ooooh and when he comes to do the night thing
It's so hard to do the right thing.

VALENTINE

I'll start with toes painted red
Legs, silky smooth spread across the bed
A satin red teddy barely covering my ass
Champagne bubbling over in my crystal glass
In a candlelit room with bedroom eyes
We meet with a kiss and passionate cries
In each others arms we fall to the floor
onto a soft bearskin rug as you sigh for more.

YOUR HEART

ALL YOUR HEART CAN DO IS FEEL
IT DOES NOT SEE
IT DOES NOT HEAR
YOUR MIND HAS EARS AND EYES
DONT RELY ON WHAT YOU FEEL
RELY ON WHAT YOU KNOW TO BE.

WINTER LOVE

In the Quiet, all around
Softly, gently, falling down
Whispering thru the winter breeze,
Blanketing the barren trees
White and fluffy to the eye
Falling from the darkened sky
What a beautiful sight it is to see
The snow fallling just for you and me.
At the cabin in the woods
We put on our coats with hoods
Out we go to brave the cold
Making snow angels never gets old.
Back inside by the fire
There is a warmth that will transpire
Outside snow falls gently in the night
Inside glowing embers of desire burn bright.

WHY DOES RACE EQUAL COLOR?

Why does race equal color?
Who decided to use the color black to describe dark chocolate brown skin?
Black is the color of a dark moonless night.
A night that is clear with no clouds and no stars.
A uniform beauty that is peacefully beautiful.
Why does race equal color?
Who decided the color white would be the color to describe my skin?
White is the color of the brightest full moon.
A majestic beauty that is etherally beautiful.
Why does race equal color?
Who decided one color should be better than another?
The colors black and white both exist independently &
They coexist splendidly in the heavens created by God.
Why do the colors white and black not coexist splendidly &
independently here on his six day miracle creation?
Why does race equal color?
Together the Majestic dark of the night and the shining white of the Etheral moon
illuminate precious stars that twinkle uniquely.
Each color by themselve equally beautiful.
Together, they have inspired lifetimes of artistic expressions of their beauty.
Why does race equal color?
Who decided all things dark are negative and all things light are positive?
Who decided to accept that desciption?
Internally we are all the same, born the same, breathe the same, bleed the same.
Who decided race equals color?
Who will decide to deny that description?
Who will decide to find equalness in their uniqueness?
Who will deny accepting their position by skin recognition?
Who will accept both colors, white and black, as uniquely beautiful?
Who will believe the colors, black and white, harmoniously
creat uniquely expressive etheral beauty.

ROMANCE

Whateva happened to romance?
Or falling in love at first glance?
Now you just wanna get in my pants
Gamin' with all your little boy rants.
It ain't that easy to be with me
I'm a single mom with a family
You just wanna have fun
but I'm lookin out for Number 1.

Whateva happened to romance?
Silly boy you have no chance
Yes I know I look good to you
Can you see more than my ass, Boo?
I live in todays reality
I got brains and personality
It's not all about the sex, boy
I am a woman, not a toy.
Whateva happened to romance?
a lil flair to enhance
Holdin hands and takin walks
Up all night heart to heart talks.
Dinners by candlelight
Soft music to get the mood right
Im not just a one night stand
So Romance I must demand.
Whateva happened to Romance?
Jumpin in to take a chance
Loving with all your heart
Never wanting to be apart.
I want more than just a friend
Someone to be there till the end
If that ain't what you're lookin for
Turn around and walk out my door.

G'Night


G'night
as I kiss you softly on that spot,
behind your ear,
on your neck,
and then, breathe in your scent.
I sigh, in content,
at my success,
in arousing you.
G'night
as I slide my fingers down your arm,
across your chest,
into your hand.
You wonder, what that meant,
I sigh, in content,
at my success,
in teasing you.
G'night
as I move inclose and put my head here,
my leg there,
skin to skin,
and then, I let you in.
I sigh, in content,
at my success,
in pleasing you.
G'night
as I kiss you softly on that spot,
behind your ear,
on your neck,
and then, breathe in your scent.
I sigh, in content,
at my success,
at loving you.
G'night
as I lay in your arms, closing my eyes,
drift off to sleep,
dream of you,
and know, this is what is meant.
I sigh, in content,
at my success
in trusting you.

SEDUCTION

It's in my walk
The way I talk
That look in my eye
When you walk by
Perfumed air
Sexy soft hair
Silky smooth skin
I make your head spin.
I am seducing you
The moment I lay eyes on you.
It's in my smile
Swagga, Lady Style
Sway in my hips
Glossy lucious lips
Jeans fittin tight
Breasts sit up right
I am oozing sexuality
You want me, that's reality.
I am seducing you
The moment I lay eyes on you.
Whispers in your ear
Kisses that seer
Touches that linger
Sucking your finger
Lowering my eyes
Your hand on my thigh
You didn't have a chance
It was lust at first glance.
I am seducing you
The moment I lay eyes on you.

life for "Hoodspeak"

life
Im so sorry you're hurting
wishing I could take your pain
with my words, flirting
hoping to stop its reign
life
Everything happens for a reason
whatever that may be
as time passes and the seasons
may you find clarity
life
Full of senseless tragedies
events that shouldnt be
when you're feeling down, please
know you found a friend in me.

WE DESERVE BETTER

The shootin in my hood again
Young men killing young men
They shootin in my hood again
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But We Deserve Better
I live deep in the hood on the south side
Cant even let the kids play outside
With bullets flyin they run and hide
Cant take that chance so they stay inside.
They shootin in my hood again
Young men killin young men
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But My kids deserve better
Bullets, they dont have a name
The Shooter, he dont have no shame
Everyday for him, its all the same
Doin what he do to stay in the game.
They shootin in my hood again
Young men Killin young men
They shootin in my hood again
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But I deserve better
A single Mom and I work real hard
Live in a big house, have a big yard
Have a pitbull for a guard
Dont own a gun, wont play that card.
They shootin in my hood again
Young men killin young men
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But they deserve better.
I have nightmares for my son
I fear the day he picks up a gun
A young man lookin out for number one
Just one shot and hes on the run
Or just one shot and his life is done.
They shooting in my hood again
Young men killin young men
They shootin in my hood again
And nobody cares
Nobody cares
But We Deserve Better.



Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I CAN BE URS, NEVER 1/6/09

not man enuf to see my face
my hurt, my tears, my eyes
or u r afraid to face
that ur telling urself lies
either reason for the distance
there will come the day
it will all come back in the instance
u know thats what ur eyes will say
in my eyes u will see ur heart
a reflection of my love
as fortold by the stars chart
souls joined by heavens above
distance wont break this connection
thats what u will see
and i will see ur affection
thats why you avoid me.
time will pass and memories will fade
but the love is always there
our next meet no matter how long delayed
u will see the love we share.
but u will still be with her
ill be with whoever
then the hurt will be as it were
i can be urs, never

I AM LOST IN THE DARK 12/30/08

I AM NOT OK
THE SADNESS WONT GO AWAY
I AM LOST IN THE DARK
EYES DULL, NO SPARK
I TRIED TO PRETEND
BUT THE TEARS WONT END
YOU ARE NO LONGER THERE
CANT BREATH, NO AIR
MY WORLD IS CRASHING
EACH BREATH A PAINFUL THRASHING
SLIPPING DEEPER INTO DEPRESSION
CANT SHARE, DARK CONFESSION
I DONT LIKE ME
OR THE ME I USED TO BE
I DONT WANT THIS LIFE
NO ONES LOVE, NO ONES WIFE
I LET MY LOVE GO
KILLING HOPE IN MY SOUL
I CAN NOLONGER GIVE MY HEART
TO DAMAGED, TO TORN APART
no one to hold me
no one consoling me
no one that truly does care
dark confession, cant share
I AM NOT OK
THE SADNESS WONT GO AWAY
I AM LOST IN THE DARK
EYES DULL, NO SPARK

I GAVE YOU ME 7/25/08

I feel everything...
to deeply...
I take everything...
personally...
but its not my fault...
this is who I am...
its not who I pretend to be...I gave u me..........
I gave u my heart...
and my trust...
I let down my guard...
love came from lust...
but its not my fault...
I have fallen...
its not who I pretend to be...I gave u me.................
Im always longing for...
your touches...
Im always dreaming of...
ur kisses...
but its not my fault...
Im in love with u...
its not who I pretend to be...I gave u me............
now Im feelin...
kinda lonely...
and this feelin...
my one and only...
this is my fault...
cuz I knew...
I should not have gave u me...
I should have gave u who I pretend to be..............
now its to late ...
to turn back the clock...
the love i feel for u...
has my heart on lock...
but its not my fault...
u are my friend...
I wasnt who I pretend to be...
cuz You asked me to give you me....
BLU 7-25-08

B.I.T.C.H. 7/30/08

I know u like what u see when u look at my pics..
but u aint gettin with this so stop sendin pics of ya dicks.....
I'd rather see it in person pics dont do nuthin for me...
NO I dont play I show u, u show me...
if u think u got game I wish u good luck...
Im not that girl who just lays down to fuck...
dont even bother if u aint gettin paid...
Yes Im a B.I.T.C.H. and no I dont need to get laid...
I just know what I want and it dont start with lust...
u gotta be on my level or above thats a must....
Im tired of broke dudes who just wanna sex me...
and think I am easy cuz I dont hide my sexy.
I only wanna be friends not tryna holla at u...
if u just wanna fuck dont even holla at Blu...
Yes Im a B.I.T.C.H. and no I dont need to get laid...
it is what it is, enough said.

THIS IS ME THIS IS WHAT I DO 2/3/09

I'M FINALLY OK WITH BEING ME
NO LONGER AM I FEELING LONELY
ACTUALLY PREFERRING BEING SINGLE
FREE TO FLIRT MIX - N - MINGLE
WE CAN BE FRIENDS IF YOU WANT TO
I GIVE U MY WORD TO BE TRU
JUST ASK AROUND MY HOOD
THE WORD OF BLU IS GOOD
BUT DONT ASK FOR MY HEART..
ONCE TOO MANY ITS BEEN RIPPED APART
I CHOOSE TO SIT HOME ALONE
ALL I GOTTA DO IS PICK UP MY PHONE
"ARE U FREE" IS THIER FAVORITE TEXT
IF THEY SAY "NO" ITS ON TO THE NEXT
I'M NOT A PLAYA I'M DOING ME
I'LL GET BACK ATCHU WHEN I'M FREE
I CAN LOVE YOU AS MY FRIEND
MY BROKEN HEART HAS TO MEND
THIS IS ME THIS IS WHAT I DO
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE SEXY BLU?
I DONT NEED YOURS I GOT MY OWN
DONT BE MAD CUZ I'M ACTIN GROWN
IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU IT'S ABOUT ME
YOU'RE JUST ONE FISH IN A SEA OF SEXY
IT'S GONNA BE THE ONE WHO STAYS ON THE LINE
LETS ME REEL HIM IN TO CATCH THIS HEART OF MINE
JUST LETTING YOU KNOW TO STEP UP YOUR GAME
I'M GONNA KEEP THE BIG FISH DONT WANT A LAME
WHEN I FINALLY DO REEL IN MY PRIZE
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE WILL BE IN MY EYES
THIS IS ME THIS IS WHAT I DO
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE SEXY BLU?
I'M FINALLY OK WITH BEING ME
NO LONGER AM I FEELING LONELY